only 4 Reasons why i dont think I belong in my family

1.) I can ask, " Hey mom, all my summer clothes are old, too small, and ripped can you take me shopping?" then She'll say, " No lauren, we dont have the maney to be wasting." then a day later my sister who just recently broke up with her boyfriend is going to her his concert. and my mom yells upstairs to me. " Bye lauren, I am taking amy to get a shirt for his concert." her reason for this bull crap. I wanted her to look pretty and she doesnt have uch. News flash she has plenty of cloths she takes up 2 closets. I on the other hand dont even have dress clothes for church.

2.) Both my parents and my sister didnt get me a present on my 16th birthday which was in march and still havent gotten me one.

3.)  they go out to eat with out me and then neither call me or bother to bring me home somthing to eat.

4.) I ask her to take me shopping for a school project for colorguard to pick up 1 or 2 things which she promised me she would do othe day before on that day. Liar, she takes my sister shopping for a drees the goes out to eat and makes me stay behind.

Hey People.

         Yesterday was so much fun. I went out to Travis Grannies house. on his moms side,  Out in eaglevile. Yeah pretty sure his granny is rich she has a four story hous with two attics and a bassment 4 barns 3 storage sheds, stables a huge 5 acre feild not including the land all the buildings and the house is on. and a huge pond swamped with like 200 over grown catfish. I think I am going to move in with her. lol Travs cousin is so cute. She asked me if me and travis was going to get married. Aww, It was so cute!

Well today I layed out! I got a tan but I am also burnt in some areas. But you no longer need sunglasses indoors lol. Well I g2g

Much love,

Lauren  "LO"

Okay People It is Championship time. Thats right, we are leaving tomorrow for our competion

Thats us! Wish us luck!

We got to sparkle and shine lol

talk to you lata

much love,

Lauren

The Big 1-6 Birthday High!!!!!!

Okay so today is Febuary 27 in 6 days, March 5, I will turm 16 YAY!!!!! I am so excited. i am on a birthday high. lol

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Yay I am so excited. i want to wear a tiara all day friday

not a plastic fake one. a pretty rinestone one from claires or somewhere. Okay Schedual

Maday- gymnastics

Tuesday- Guard

Wensday- Travis Granny or Church with Brady

Thursday- guard

Friday- Open Hoping for a spend the night party with Jerilyn and Bre

Saturday- Grandparents i think

Sunday_ I dont know

well i g2g

                  love ya bunches

                   Lauren

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Hey guys, Whats up. Today was an okay day. The only bad thing was that there was so things that happened that shouldn't have happened and was unnessicary beyond reason. Its funny how something seems to be all good but then next things happen and your thoughts of that one thing is scrambled and you cant figure it out. I cant figure this one out. Yes, there are things in my life that go wrong and I just cant figure out why it had to be. But this one....

       This one really has been getting to me. Finally, thing seem to going right. Then the BIG BOOM happens. What is the BIG BOOM exactly. Well, I will tell you  The BIG BOOM is anything that seem to be slowly and painfull chipping away at your  life, your hope, your dreams, your self confidense, your pride, and just all together makes you feel like there is nothing in the world to make you smile.

            I have been though a lot this pass month. My father lost his job, I had to watch my sister go through a divorce at only 19, members of my family dieing, my grandmother having breast cancer, my best freind going in and out of the hospital for reasons that i can not  say, just finding out that my Great Uncle Jackie, probably the most fun, loving, and sweet member in my family, has throught cancer and they might have to take his voice box.my grades slowly dropping for reasons that I can not see, another one of my freind finding out about disease that was hidden from her and almost having to quit colorguard, and a couple more things that I cant even remember right now. How have mentally survived this. I thought it was because of that one thing that just that went wrong today. But, then something happened and again my world has been turned up side down.

      Thank God for Travis. He might be the only thing that is holding me together. And to me that seems like alot for just one person to do on his own. Yes, I know that god makes things happen for a reason but why do they seem to only me and my family and all in such a close time frame. Maybe I am blinded from seeing everyone else going through this same stuff or maybe they are really good at hiding it. I dont know. I need some kind of sign that things are going to get better. Cause I just dont know how much longer my family and I  can last.

         I am sorry for having to pour all of these emotions out on all of you.

But on a lighter note ( and in a happier color )...

  MMM...

         I dont know?

I guess I will go make the best of whats left of my day.

                                                                          Off to find a sign of reassurance,

                                                                                  Lauren